Facebook posts while in Nicaragua

I was in Nicaragua for 3 weeks on a service trip...definitely a landmark spiritually and naturally...here are some posts while I was there



1/11/12
If I wrote a praise the length of the equator it still would not equate to the honor God deserves. 
I couldn't compose a melody to match the wonder of Your name. 
If the vastness of the universe is a measurement of greatness, then the galaxies do pale in comparison to You. Thank You Lord for who You are. 
Thank You Lord for all you do.


1/10/12
I love being here and I love what I do!! Everyday that I get to work and make a difference is an amazing day. I am so thankful for the opportunity God has placed in my lap and the mind He has given me to pursue it. Let me tell ya'll favor aint fair, but it sure is mine! In the past two days I've had two different offers to do over seas service work at some point in the next 12 months because of the way I have interacted and worked thus far. People are giving me all these compliments but little do they know, it's not about me or my ability at all- It's all God! He guides and creates and directs, I'm simply the tool He's using to do so! The illumination they see in me is the LIGHT of Jesus Christ!



 

 1/8/12
In love with life right now because:
-Saw the cutest monkey walking down the street 
-Met the most adorable baby..she fell in love with me, and her name just happened to be GABY!
-Had the best banana split EVER (fig, coconut, and mint fruit ice cream...& not only could you never get that in the states, but it tastes WAY better than it sounds)
-The sweetest two year old boy kept smiling at me and blowing besitos *heart melts*
-Saw the most gorgeous scenery where the blue and orange sky meet the sea at dusk
-FULL MOON!!

The best part? I'm in love with the Maker of it ALL
♥ *le sigh* Good times
 

1/6/12
Every time I leave home
Whenever I leave the country
I find an abundance of blessings that surround me and become apparent in many different ways
One being that in the face of lack my gratitude increases exponentially
In the absence of my loved ones
My appreciation for them intensifies immensely
In sacrifice, my love for the Savior of my soul is purified and re-birthed
& I remember that I have the face of favor



1/4/12

Everybody shouting and posting and exclaiming the life they're living and the content of their character....have fun with that. I'll be busy living it. The best way to prove that I'm an unquestionably inexchangeable individual with a simply spectacular valor is to actualize my greatness...not describe it. You can read what I write, or watch what I live. I'll make sure they say the same thing, believe that #yatusabes

1/4/12
  YAY:
SO EXCITED we got to work at la biblioteca movil...cleaning and repairing books for los ninos!!

NAY:
Laying in the sun on a rock near the beach today (cause I have no problems getting dark chocolate) I hear some natives (who no doubt assume I'm a non-spanish speaking tourist) say:

"Ay, mirar la morena en el SOL! Que? Curtido? Ay, Pobrecita"
or something very similar to that effect...which basically means
"oh look at the brown/dark girl in the SUN! what? like she's tanning? Oh poor thing!"

WAIT so ya'll thought I didn't understand you? Ah, can't even escape racism a thousand miles away, smh. Pero, me gusta mi chocolate! so #BAM!
 

Love like Crazy (1/20/12)

One definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting a different result. 
Well I must love like crazy, then. Despite how people disappoint me, hurt me, or fail to reciprocate...I love fervently and whole heartedly any how.
Pain in my past does not stop me from giving love in my future. 
I give the same compassionate love, with hope hidden somewhere that even though I'm loving just as i always have, maybe this person will be changed by it. 
At the end of the day, isn't that what love is anyways? Forgiving? Unconditional? Untainted by circumstance? 
So love in itself is illogical...it's nonsensical...it's crazy.

Here is my heart (I AM SORRY JESUS)

Jesus. I'm sorry for ever loving you more with my mouth than with my heart.

I'm sorry for ever accepting the reality of my circumstance over the dominating and absolute truth of your perfect Word.

I am sorry for every time you've promised me something and I began to fret instead of rest, invited doubt instead of dwelling in peace, or became anxious instead of confident.

Jesus, I am sorry for being complacent when you are ever pining after me.

I am sorry for any time I have ever given you my heart on Sunday worship only to let distractions borrow it for the week.

I am sorry if I ever treated you as an after thought or a last minute obligation instead of the first-place love.

I'm sorry if my faith dwindled as if to ignore the true AWESOMENESS of who YOU are.

I'm sorry if I ever thought my words, tweets, or posts were enough or adequate replacement for intimacy with you.

I am sorry for choosing self gratification over consecration.

I am sorry for ever putting and self in the righteousness YOUR BLOOD paid for me.

Jesus, I am sorry for telling you I give you everything but in my heart meaning everything on my terms.

Jesus, I am sorry for falling short when you have given me the power to over come the world.

I am sorry because I know this will not be my last "I'm sorry".

I'm sorry for ever hurting you or living as anything less the woman you have created me to be.

I'm sorry for allowing your light to be dim.

I'm sorry for ever taking away the glory you deserve.

I'm sorry for speaking when I should be quiet, and being quiet when I should be led by your spirit.

I'm sorry for victimizing myself when you have declared me MORE than a conqueror.

Daddy, I am yours, forever. You are mine, forever. I am your bride. I will be everything you have called me to be because I love you. If I cannot love you with everything that I have, fully, submissively, sacrificially, and completely, I have no business being called a child of the Most High God.

I turn from my wicked ways, and I humble myself before you, my King.

love as one

lyrics i wrote for a project peace song (lyrics aren't gonna be used so i thought i would share anyway...written in 2008)



The sun arose on the horizon

And so did my sight



the air was thick with tears

And cries filled up my ears

as I watched the dark of today 

paint up the skies



and swirls of red 

bright as all the blood shed

and the grays, and the blues

showing the lost and confused



and raindrops for every tear

and every child locked in their fears

for every mouth going un-fed

for every word left un-said



and I could cry

who painted this vision of our demise?

Then I heard a still peace

quiet that spoke to me

Released the sword from the sheath

My heart told me to believe

Love is the only cure 

to this disease

love, compassion, royalty

Qu3eN G

Son in the sky

4/23/11

my eyes saw Fire pour from the Son filled skies

i watched as God's hand carefully gripped the heavenly skillet containing the Blaze

blowing Life ever so gingerly over this holy molten concoction of

miracle plated cells, holding Jesus in every nucleus

and instead of cooling down the Glory

the Brilliance combusted into a blinding Radiance

and my Spirit caught a fever

the Living water began bubbling

dripping over the edges

started

trickling through a dark sin thick atmosphere

clouds so thick hope wasn't even visible

and the living water started to touch us

the Fire of the Spirit started to spin

painting swirls of wildFire

it's Flames stretched out it's arms

circled us, the Fire was crying HOLY HOLY HOLY!

the Flames crying in fervor, in worship

the majestic Embers began to wrap up

the Fire and the Water

creating a spiritual chemical reaction

hot enough to melt the chains of sin and watch them drip back to the hell they came from

because captivity just wasn't in Christ's recipe

and

the water that turned to calvary blood

strong enough to engulf sin and spew it out

overpowering and consuming

purify

sparks burst from the heavenly realms

and danced in our spirit

wrapping up our tongues

and transforming our eyes

that we might transport from flesh to the Spirit

covering human ears so our souls would hear

the coming of the Messiah like raindrops that mate with Fire

we are reborn to witness an elemental astonishment

with closed eyes and hyssop kissed hearts

my eyes saw Fire descend from the Son filled skies

as darts like burning wings created a regal pavement

and a horse white, unstained like the slained Lamb

rode each Flame, it's hooves gliding with each flicker

so radiant our natural eyes could not behold it

and along the path the angels bowed

crowns of their head touching the floor

as they cried HOLY HOLY HOLY

crying earnestly, in worship

ontop the Horse was the Word

was the Protection of the hebrew boys in the blazes of the king

was the Miracle in the womb of the chosen, a call mary

was the Sight for the blind man

and Redemption for the harlot

was the Torture for the demons

and the Downfall of the enemy

and atop the Horse was the Word

the origin of the Fire

the source of the Water

the body that held the Blood

atop the horse was my Father

My Savior, the Son

atop the Horse was my LIFE

and earth's sun paled in comparisson to His glory

and i fell on my face

and inhaled, that i might utterly drown in His glory

that i might just be suicidal and die in my carnal to live in His Spirit

i looked up, i looked up,

and my eyes saw FIRE fall from Son filled skies like a reverse tsunami

like heaven was the ocean

and the Spirit of God descended on us

and it felt, so good to burn

to drown, and to burn

searing the flesh so the soul might live-life-light

like-live-life-right like

live i think i might i, think i might live

then suddenly i felt a pain in my back and my side

and He said savor the chastisement

you've been adopted

i only chastise them that I love, and of all my creations I love you the highest

and tears fell from my eyes like the Fire fell from heaven

i felt the pain in back subside...

you're in labor my child

birthing a miracle

and your child will be lyrical

so you call tell the story of when

your eyes saw fire pour from the Son filled skies

love, compassion, royalty 

QU3EN G