SOME YOUNG MEN (thoughts)

Most young men these days are cowards. Hiding behind sexuality because in reality they fear they are incapable of anything deeper;

hiding behind technology because they fear the honesty of real communication, and the courage in true vulnerability;

hiding behind their youth because they fear deep down that they are not able to earn the right to the title of MAN, to accept what they cannot provide; to take on responsibility, sacrifice, and selflessness

Most Young men these days are not really young men... merely mature looking boys. They need to study my Heavenly Father to see what it requires to be a man by character, not just biology.

love, compassion, royalty

Qu3eN G

Random thoughts: beauty, marriage, guarding your heart

Beauty

Ladies, let me just make you aware of something...

you DON’T have to be naked to be beautiful.

beauty is something that you naturally are.

also, know that when you are naked, you are beautiful. 

cause beauty isn’t something you make,

beauty is something that you naturally are.

self conscious can come in mini-skirts or the mirror after you shower at home. know where beauty lies, know that it resides within you. 

Do not be afraid to let it out; the ugliness in the world fears your realization of this. your inner beauty will cause it’s dissipation.

A Little Wisdom From Me To My Cousin

“Above all else, guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it.”

Proverbs 4:24

“Let your eyes look straight ahead; fix your gaze directly before you. Give careful thought to the paths for your feet and be steadfast in all your ways.” v. 25,26

You have to focus on what’s in front of you, and what God has for you, and what future holds…not on the desire your heart has created. you have to be careful about your actions and consistent with them.  
Us horace women, we are successful, strong willed and beautiful; but, we like hard and love harder, and are known for dysfunctional love lives

 i could tell you that it will go away eventually, time will heal wounds, he’s so far away, is he even saved, nows not the time…etc. etc. etc. but now isn’t the time for all that and you surely don’t want to hear it….because you already know these things.

i’ll just let you be angry and hurt for a while, and vent on tumblr. guys who steal your heart and break it are just part of it. you have to learn it’s not always the a-holes and jerks, sometimes nice guys are the worst culprits… but we get used to hoping in potential and possibilities but they are not as concrete as wisdom…and surely not as realistic as the pain you will feel for waiting on a maybe. So, it’s a lesson learned. your heart is invaluable. SO you have to guard it. better a little pain now and a cracked heart, than a whole lot of pain later and a shattered one.

Marriage

Marriage is one of the most beautiful things to exist.

it’s symbolism runs deeper than society comprehends. it is symbolic of God’s love for us; of His commitment to loving us consumingly. He promises us forever, and He means it. what an honor to be the bride of Christ…and to eventually represent that as the bride of my husband.

Guarded Heart

my mind is a fortress because my heart is over eager. That's why the heart needs to be guarded with all diligence.

Bad vs. Beautiful

I don’t want to be “bad”; I want to be *beautiful*

pretty is how you look; beautiful is who you are

attractiveness can be seen; true beauty is experienced

to be “bad” is one thing, but to be genuinely beautiful is in another category completely.

sightless, soundless: heartfelt beauty

 

To see someone’s beauty with your eyes sealed shut, cracking the crevice of slit lids only to steal the sunrise of their smile

to unstitch the tightly sewn cross of your heart so that it may freely bask in the beauty one person exudes; a loveliness so massive the law of physics require it to attract it’s own gravitational pull of wonderment, whisking your happiness in tow

to, with closed ears, hear the melodic vibration of compassion so furious it’s intensity pulsates platelets to the beat of the most sincere of affections

this, this is depth.

Beauty seen with the eyes is only a preliminary taste to the flavor of beauty felt with the soul

 

 love, compassion, royalty

Qu3en G

GREY and other thoughts

Past thoughts and such

Grey

I've never really been a fan of grey. Fashionably, who doesn't love a good neutral? But when it applies to my life, I can never be comfortable with the representation of fuzzy, vague, imprecise ambiguity. Give me black or white. Yes or no. Embrace or neglect. Acceptance or denial. But grey? The realm of amorphous emotions, inexact definitions? that's torture. I don't like to guess. I like to know. Please...never grey. I'd take a painful truth before sugar coated indecision.

Good Enough

I've been through someone who thought I was good enough to love, but not good enough to be with; been through Someone who thought I was good enough to touch, but not good enough to love...All I want is someone who knows, without a doubt, that as I am, I am already more than enough.

I Love My Brothers

i love my brothers! sisters, we need to love our brothers. the world is tough on our brothers. our men are like no other. let's honor our brothers. let's encourage our brothers. cuz if we build up the brothers, we're planting seeds of fathers, of workers, of lovers. we're investing in our mothers. so, i love my brothers. yes, i love the brothers.

Future Husband Note #34.1

one day i shall call you babe, and you shall call me some creative nickname that is simultaneously non-nauseating and impressively cute. and it will be you and me, kid. you, me, and God.

Hindsight

the truth is going to beat you in hindsight because you ignored her every time she tried to speak to you as a precaution #takeheed

Frog Kisses

No quiero besar más ranas. Señor, por favor, solo enviar a mi príncipe.

I do not want to kiss more frogs. Lord, please, just send my prince.

nailpolish

on the phone with my big sister Vera, as usual, and I ask her why my niece just told me she had black nails.

me: vera, why is michal’s 3 year old behind wearing black nailpolish?

vera: well, i tried to convince her to pick a different, less severe color like pink or something, but she said “but mommy, black is beautiful”. at that point i couldn’t argue with that…

ahhh i love my lil michal, she’s phenomenal!

Mystery Revealed

The mystery of life and its purpose in us, the mystery of the great force of God, is revealed in the Revelation of Jesus Christ

Dear Future Pursuers #1

Don't expect to get by on minimal effort. I already have a Heavenly Father who gave everything for me.

Dear Future Pursuer 2.3

if JESUS is not your everything, then I will presumably be nothing to you.

… if the WORD is not in YOUR heart, you shall NOT be in mine.

if MARRIAGE isn’t in your future, neither am I.

Pictures & potential 

i don't want to see pictures of my past. i want to see the potential of my future

letters

how bout I write you a letter, and you tell me bout your dreams?

trade you ink for aspirations

and place stamps on the makings

of good memories and soft smiles

I bet emotions haven’t felt handwritten in a while

the mail box can be our time machine

and we can discover buried hope worth finding

so

how bout I write you a letter, love

and you tell me bout your dreams?


love, compassion, royalty

IN LOVE...with God

but I'm just so happy. If I didn't know God was real I'd be convinced that my reality is merely a delusion of grandeur. How did i get to this point of joy so immense it alters the density of the air I breathe? Your love is so thick within my atmosphere, I suffocate at the thought of being out of your presence. Why do you love me so to make my soul smile the way it does? oh Son of Man your indescribable and incomparable compassion does floor me; my heartbeat is an applause in praise of your utter and absolute majesty. i am no more than a spec of dust floating somewhere between here and eternity yet your love has found me and validated my existence and given my spirit breath. who am i that you are mindful of me? that even as the protons and the electrons, the atoms and the molecules, the cells, the organisms, the stars, the suns, the moons, the galaxies exist in purposeful glory to you, you chose me to die for, to love, to have the honor of praising you, of worshiping you, of being your temple. i'm overwhelmed. i'm overwhelmed.


love, compassion, royalty

YOU are NOT alone purposelessly...

(thoughts)

you are not alone purposelessly;

you are in preparation of a love that’s more than lots of pictures and hand holding

you are being prepared for a love that is worth it; that has been prepared for you since before the moon danced waves into the ocean

you are in wait of a love that takes a complete person and engulfs them in a consuming passion that causes their soul to function differently…not a “love” that superficially boast a depth-less romance

you are alone so you can spend time falling in love with yourself, so when you meet the person meant for you, you can have something timeless in common. 

if you are still in the mindset that another person makes you whole or complete, or happy

you aren’t ready

if you still don’t know how beautiful and priceless you are, how precious your heart is

you aren’t ready

if the thing that makes you want a relationship is merely attractive affection and the ability to say someone is yours and you are theirs

you aren’t ready

so hold on. we all get that feeling of want sometimes that gnaws at us silently.

but you, you are in wait for the fulfillment of destiny. a love with someone who finds joy in the bliss of your presence; who loves you from the inside out then tunnels their way back again; someone whose love just makes you want to be the best you you could possibly be. a love far greater than romantic movies and love novels could portray. love that could only be understood by living it and bleeding it and breathing it. love that is far deeper than cute pictures, far more ardent than sweet cute text messages, far more powerful than infatuation, far more pure than youthful lust. 

you are not alone purposelessly; you are alone waiting for the most magnificent of flawed perfection, a love that is real and true for you

love, royalty, compassion

Qu3en G

What's in a name?

Thekla; Greek: Divine Fame/Glory of God

From the ancient Greek name Θεοκλεια (Theokleia), which meant “glory of God” from the Greek elements θεος (theos) meaning “god” and κλεος (kleos) meaning “glory”. SaintThekla was supposedly the first female martyr (1st century).

Gabrielle; Hebrew: God is my might/God gives strength

Gabrielle; French: Woman of God

Gabrielle; Israeli: Hero of God

Samantha; Hebrew (Aramaic): Listener/Listener of God

I had no idea how powerful my name is! Wow!

there is so much POWER in a name

Christmas Love Story

a piece I wrote around last Christmas

I wanted to write you a love story

But the world has tried to edit this epic tale of affection to decrease the immensity of this massive declaration of love,

sacrifice, and acceptance

They’ve tried to dilute deliverance by taking the holy out of holiday putting an ex where my name is,

as if santa clause is the one who can give you the gift of forgiveness and repentance

See, I wanted to write you a story

In the wisps of silence, on a night where love lassoed the sky and pulled the moon closer in an anticipatory embrace

Where the stars slid closer to witness my witness come forth, edge of their seats twinkling eager to capture every word

This love tale, the most magnificent, to ever exist, or be heard

I wanted to write you a love story so I started scripting grace before words existed so that one day you might know

mercy grew legs and walked on earth,

so you’d never have to stroll strife solo, sitting  & surmising sinking as sin sets in,

So see I sent my Son one night to shine

As the Author, I wrote immaculate inside a womb and conceived destiny there

Colored impossible on the umbilical cord

Put a space between me and capability

with each heartbeat I’m Possible echoed in the atmosphere implanting our narrative far out to the stratosphere

so by the point of conception I dropped the potentiality

leaving solely absolutely and indubitably

defying the contraction and all common place reality just to say to the world that I AM that I AM

reign down in fetus form like the precipitation of glory

wrapped in rags unfit for earthly royal, only humble enough for the King of kings

but see the swaddling clothes were nothing in comparison to the lowliness of this

because I serenaded my love for you when I gift wrapped myself in human flesh

no plot twist is greater than this, Than the Beginning and the End becoming hu-man

just so all hues of men who

were lost in the beginning only to be damned in the end

might have a new beginning and a heavenly end

in the beginning of new life and demise that has come to an end

when as the heavenly beginning laid down my life to end

That’s why I chose an untouched virgin to represent how I make all things new

Restore your soiled hearts to their state before sin conceived

Christ, the protagonist

Is Me, wrapped in mortal flesh

Being born just for you, basically beseeching your best, beckoning your heart because if you just believe and receive

this gift,

you will unwrap my heart to find your purpose in it

And a love story that leads to a climax, sentences of salvation shaped like a cross,

Animals surrounding me, I meekly moved into the world as an infant on a mission to claim my lost

sheep

This love story that started in a manger, has been written in my  blood

I wanted to write you a love story

So I wrote this for you

Don’t let the world take it from you

My love is overflowing pouring Life just for you

Not just in words but in sacrifice for you

My Son was born only to die just for you

Every soul saved by my name, is a merry Christ-mas to you

I wanted to write you a love story

So I wrote this for you

by: Qu3eN G

love, compassion, royalty

BLACK BLOOD

This is inspired by two beautiful people, but dedicated to all the beautiful black gold 

inspired by the ugliness of self hate of our people, and racism of people in general,  inflicted on two really beautiful dark chocolate skinned black women

BLACK BLOOD

(first draft)

1/6/12

Have you ever seen black blood

Funneled from the night sky into blue veins

Liquid onyx melted into molecules that swim through

Platinum veins

Flecks like dark diamonds finely crushed into dark angel dust

And blown off full lips onto fire kissed skin

And our platelets be rich like Queen marrow

The royal bones that became dirt

and grew trees that have branches that dance

and leaves that salute us

Roots that give birth to golden dust

They aint never seen beauty til they seen black blood

Drums bang in our bloodstream

But the ignorant be Helen Keller lost

Deaf to our song, blind to our majesty

Their words be invisible machetes

So our backs curve like the weapon

See our presence be equally as deadly

The antidote be the poison

The love of the ones they loathe is the remedy

But baby we’re built strong

The structure of the rib copies the embrace of our arms

Our hearts drip slick like black oil

That’s why our bodies be a gold mine

Brothers try to hit the gold

with 50 cent words

And hate 400 years old but

They don’t know

They gotta dig deep into their capillaries

Shovel past their insecurity

before they can even reroute to our

Shadowed treasure

They forgot black gold birthed them

They been so mixed up by ivory misconceptions that

They got greyscales building a film on their eyes

And it doesn’t even hurt them when the confused try to depreciate our value anymore

Their pupils dilated with lies

Black gold so beautiful the earth’s core mimics her aura

But they make you hate you when they don’t understand you

Your magnificence  so far beyond comprehension their brain cells combust at the thought of your regality

Black Gold

They melt in your presence

and seeping into black dirt is the closest they get to your depth

They’re subconsciously jealous so they busy tryna bring your self esteem to death

But our black beauty is endless

Black love don’t cry

Sometimes black tears don’t dry

I still see the riverbeds engraved on your cheeks

Black blood

God spells your name in the sky

People think the stars are the masterpiece but your loveliness so vast he used

your blood to paint the sky

the stars are just cutouts, your raven color is the foreground

Black Gold

They have it misconstrued. God made cream colors just to offset your beauty

You be the art, they just the canvas

Black blood

You are

splendor so magnanimous

He painted you on the inside of eyelids

So all of existence could spend some time with you

He made your kinky coils so they could catch love in the strands when the breeze blew

He made chocolate dipped honey and let it bake in the Holy sun

So candy could almost taste as exquisite as you look

Don’t let the rapper fool you, obsidian ambrosia

Black Gold

Thunder even rounds in applause for you

Your beauty makes the sky cry

Van Gogh didn’t know he dreamt you one night

And he copied the inside of your womb to paint Starry Night

But it couldn’t really come close to the masterpiece

Held inside of you

Black blood you don’t know

The universe bleeds you

In shooting stars

and honors you in the embrace of an eclipse

your love is beyond solar or lunar

Galactic systems sync in serruptitious symphonies for you

oceans orchestrate arias for you

you drip radiance when you breathe

you birth miracles when you sleep

black blood

you are the preamble and the epilogue and the novel in between

God made your skin like ink because you are His favorite story

He placed pieces of you in the Heavens and hid your essence in the Earth

Words are too fickle and feeble to accurately portray your eminent glory

Black blood

Doves are white because their peace couldn’t compare to you

Black blood

They aint never seen beauty til they seen you

They spew venom because they don’t understand you

Subconsciously they envy you

But black blood you are beautiful

They’re blind

And even in darkness

Your beauty drowns them

Black blood

They aint never seen beauty til they seen you

by: Qu3eN G

what does this poem, or the issue of racism and colorism make you think about? thoughts? issues? opinions? feel free to share.

love, compassion, royalty.

a study on LOVE...

So last summer I did a study on 1 Corinthians 13, the LOVE chapter. These were some of the things the Lord showed me through the study. Hope it blesses you!

LOVE STUDY

To gain a new perspective, try reading the entire chapter each time replacing the word "charity" with: *the Love of God *the love of self *the love of others

-Love for self & others always rejoices in TRUTH...even in chastisement

-Love believes all things God Says Love bears all things God says Love hopes in all things God says

-Love endures despite myself or situation (self love)

-Perseverance towards improvement is a form of love: for God and for self

-Love NEVER fails! Do LOVE and it will DO what it should...LIVE LOVE!!

-all things WITHOUT love of God, Self, and Others is incomplete and SHALL fail; LOVE completes!!

-It takes maturity to understand the completeness & essential requirement of love. 

-As we learn & grow in love, so do our actions since love is shown in action

-Love is light; It illuminates

-Love quickens: is lively/alive, brings life

-love is not judgmental

-Love does not ALWAYS feel like what it has to say is more important that whatever else is being heard....even silence!

-Love seeketh not her own...be self-LESS!

-Love is not easily provoked by people or by circumstances; love gives soft answers (control & temperance)

-Loving yourself is being patient with yourself

-Loving God is being patient even when you don't have an answer or don't know what to do...Patience and obedience are actions of trust built on love

-True self love is generous; If you love yourself, you don't allow yourself to be easily angered or provoked for your own best interest, balance, and peace! Self love doesn't support evil thoughts

-True self love is the opposite of conceit; it is humility

-Love thinks no evil towards God, towards self, or towards others!

-love doesn't ASSUME evil of

-Truths make love joyful...not evil or ungodly things. If evil or ungodly things spring up joy, it is not love and it is not of God

-Love hopes, bears, and endures ALL!

-If you love yourself, or God, you act right!

-Love for Self, Love for God, Love for Others NEVER FAILS!

Saints walking in the purpose and will of God exhibit love for God, for self, and for others. They are not independent of each other, each is intertwined. You can't lack one and not lack something for the other two!

A little study on PROVERBS 31

I did a study on the traits of a Proverbs 31 woman a little while back. Recently, I've been praying about discipline, and decided to take a deeper look into the Proverbs 31 woman. I was really blessed by it so I shared with some of my sisters and wanted to share with you all...hope it blesses!

Since I am praying for discipline I re-did a study on Proverbs 31...reading different translations, and re-did the list of characteristics..I find that Prov. 31 is such a powerful scripture...it is so detailed, but we need to dig deeper than our vain repetitions. We as women really have a laid out instruction that tells us exactly what we should do, who we should be, and exactly what we should strive for. 

To be a real Proverbs 31 is a REAL task that takes CONTINUAL work, effort, chastisement, and humility! I realize there is no "gee I made it, I'm the perfect Proverbs 31", but it is more so a consistent and determined strive to become that woman throughout our lives. 

Did I mention work? I never realized how much the scripture truly mentions how much she works or references her work ethic. WE CANNOT BE LAZY AND UNDISCIPLINED AND CONSIDERED A PROVERBS 31 WOMAN! 

We tend to isolate traits certain people have and say, oh wow she's kind, she's smart...such a Proverbs 31 woman. But the POWER of  a Proverbs 31 isn't that she carries a couple traits, but ALL of them at the same time. No, that doesn't mean PERFECTION but it means constant striving. It's about getting to a place where you constantly strive for that and you more frequently hit the mark than not. 

Think about it. The bible says that this woman of excellence (Wendy, I peeped that SHE carries the spirit of excellence we were talking about..like daniel!) is RARE! It says that "Many daughters have done virtuously, but thou excellest them all".  If it is so rare, and if all these women actually do virtuously but this specific woman excels or surpasses them all...everybody is not going to be a Proverbs 31. That's reality! It is a HIGH standard. BUT all women of God who are Spirit filled and Spirit led do have the potential to be. The defining factor is actualizing that potential. Our effort will separate the good women from the excellent women.

The only way she can achieve that level of excellence is by and through total submission to God. If you aren't totally submitted, you CAN'T be a Proverbs 31 (in her essence). There is no other way to achieve such a high standard...these aren't merely acts of the flesh but multiple manifestations of the fruit of the Spirit. This is why so many women fall short. It's not just in the actions, it's a matter of the heart and spirit. All those traits can come once we've fully submitted our hearts to God and His will in total REVERENCE.

Her character glorifies God. Her day to day life is a worship to Him...even in her smallest actions, the character of God can be seen. That is powerful. Sisters, we have a MIGHTY position in the Lord. If we get this thing right...we'll be turning this world upside down.

Gee, I have so much to work on! But I'm excited about it!

p.s. please feel free to respond, add on, etc.!

The List:

Trustworthy

Faithful

LOVING

Hard Worker/works eagerly /with delight!(even when no one is working)

Her presence is a blessing

Well respected

Diligent

Has integrity

rises early to work

Gives

Invests, Builds up

Strong from her love

Compassionate & Generous (to all needy)

A woman of QUALITY

Prepared

Confident & Regal (not cocky, not insecure)

Business minded

Prosperous

Wise

Intelligent

Always mindful of others/doing for others

Secure!

Kind

Supportive

STRONG

Keeps her house/maintains the atmosphere of her home…she regularly contributes

She’s aware/in-tune with the needs/people of her household

She is a starter AND a finisher

Well balanced

She respects what she has (her home, her family, her things)

Productive

Independent yet submissive! (she can handle her own)

She is not solely a wife, but a woman of God in her own right (Her identity is in the Lord)

She is an exceptional wife and mother & fulfills those roles wholeheartedly

She brings her husband honor

She is as royalty, she carries herself well

Optimistic/looks forward to the future

She speaks the Word

She makes the most out of her opportunities

She makes her husband to feel content- her actions remind him regularly that she is his blessing

Humble (though everyone praises her, she never needs to praise herself because…)

HER WORKS PRAISE HER

Nurturing

Makes everyone feel special/she is inclusive (her home, her servants, other workers i.e. merchants)

Rational (thoughtful)

She has a merry countenance (she makes the people around her happy)

Generous

She is good at managing her money (hello!)

She knows her worth and the value of the work she does

She does not lag or procrastinate but is instant

She is kind/meek in her words and speaks with purpose

Thank God for being a woman :)

love, compassion, royalty

Qu3eN